Discernment.
Is your fear of accomplishment greater than your fear of failure? This question has been on my mind for the last few years. And I still haven’t answered this for myself. This conversation with myself was born out of the feeling that I everything that I accomplished was not for me. I did not have the discernment to tell that I was not living for myself, I was living everyone else’s dreams for me. I had to come to the realization that I had beliefs that were ingrained in me since I was a child that kept me from living and crafting a life for myself creatively. Living my others judgements of my potential and being. In some ways I still do this. However, I now have the discernment to tell what my thoughts and beliefs are versus what someone else has for me. Starting with myself and working on ending harmful thought patterns. My own discernment is something developed through being emotionally manipulated through my adolescence and something that gets stronger every year. Acknowledging my own pain and healing allows me so much more empathy for others, whether they are harmful to others or to themselves. However, knowing someone who is harmful to to others or themselves does not have to stop you from loving them. Sometimes we have to do this from afar and that’s okay too.
